Day 11: Your current relationship; If single discuss

I’ve been dreading writing this, but hey I have a challenge to complete.
So, my current relationship, hehe, I’m single. I’ve been single for well over year now. My previous girlfriend broke up with me because I didn’t reciprocate the efforts and love she put into our relationship, though I tried my best and wished it was communicated to me that I was slacking. Anyway, we’re here now…and I’m single.
I attempted to move on a couple of times but I’m either too slow, too picky or my baggage is too much to carry. In those times I tried to move on, there’s one who somewhat took my heart by the balls. I fell for her hard and thought or rather felt like she too had fallen. We hung out a lot, and before we went far I decided to unpack my baggage, it wasn’t a lot but one and it scared her off. She instantly switched from wanting to be in a relationship with me to just having me as a friend. In all the times I tried to move on she was the only one I had let into my bubble, close enough to touch my heart and it’s hard to move on from that, as her prints are still on my heart. Oh well, that went up in flames.
I ended up trying to rise from the fire like a phoenix but eish it’s hard, I had met someone who I had a good time getting to know, a bit of a nerd but I was too slow for her. She wanted me to just jump into a relationship with her but I could do that. I don’t if it was because she let me hit (her idea, she initiated it) the second time we hung out or not. I don’t know if she felt like us having been together was equals to us getting to know each other fully. I kept on asking her out on lunch dates and all so I could get to know her fully but she kept making up excuses for not meeting up with me. Ignored my calls but had the strength to ask me what we were after refusing me a chance to get to know her fully. I then proceeded to stop trying to make contact with someone who didn’t want me to get to know her but wanted an instant relationship.
Sigh, now I’m here. in my little corner, chatting to people, or rather one person who I hope will accept me as I am. Oh, and I have my friends bugging me to date this friend of mine who they feel would be the best person for me, but I can’t do that because I don’t want to gamble with our friendship it’s too precious to me and either way I don’t know if she’d want to date me. I love her though, a lot. She knows me better than most people and ain’t never turned her back against me when I unpack my baggage.
Okay, that was a mouth full.  🙂

Day 9: Your feelings on Ageism

Ageism, to a certain extent I’m for ageism. I know it’s hard being discriminated against because of your age, but for certain things I understand why we experience it. 
Most people at certain age make reckless financial decisions, they don’t think twice about spending that grand or two on things might better their lives. They just want to live in the now, have fun, pop bottles and let tomorrow’s problems worry about themselves. All they want to do is have fun despite knowing that their pockets can’t handle the pressure they put on it. They do all of this because they see their peers who somewhat have generational wealth they inherited from their fathers (or who were lucky and got a big break and started racking it in) have fun, spending money like there’s no tomorrow. Financial institutions will then go ahead and start discriminating against them because, well, they can see that this certain age group can’t handle their finances. How should they trust someone like that? How will that person be able to pay back that loan? In that aspect I for ageism. 
Except for when it comes to jobs, you find that one is discriminated because they don’t have that 3 years working experience for an apparent entry level position, but that very person could actually out perform someone who’s been working longer than they have. These people don’t even make it to the interview stages, they just screen their résumés and decided that they aren’t qualified instead of interviewing them, picking their brains to actually find out how much they actually know. Yes, there are chancers out there but I feel there are more people who are more than capable of doing the job than chancers who claim they can. 
For now, I’ll just leave my ageism thoughts there, though there are lots I could write about…

​ Day 8: A book you love and one you didn’t

 

I loved Rupi Kaur’s milk and honey, that’s one amazing book and I’d recommend it to anyone, as much as it might be for ladies but I feel like us guys can learn a lot from it. It’s so moving, you somewhat feel her pain, you legit go hand in hand with her through her life journey with every page you turn.
Fortunately, there’s no book that I didn’t love. So far I’ve enjoyed every book I’ve smelt and read. As each has taught me its own separate lesson and made me what I am today. I hope I never come across a book that I won’t love or enjoy reading.

​ Day 6: Someone who fascinates you and why

 

I can’t say there’s a specific person who fascinates me, but I’m fascinated by people who go for their dreams without fearing that they are going to fail.
It’s something that has bothered me for a very long time and still is bothering me, that is why I haven’t achieved most things I thought I would have achieved by the age of 25 but I’m still grateful for those that I’ve managed to achieve and everything I have. Those who always go after what they love and believe me always fascinate me, they fill my heart with nothing but joy as the amount of courage it took for them to do that is immense. Despite the doubts, fears and or whatever obstacles they encountered they still went on and conquered their dreams. This is nothing less than fascinating to me.
That’s who fascinates me, people who go for their dreams.

​ Day 5: A place you would live, but have never visited.

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I would live a whole lot of places, but one that I’d really want to live in is by God’s Window in Mpumalanga. I think I’d feel more at home there than anywhere else, it’s not far from where I live, though I’ve never been there. I’ve visited places further than it but just never managed drive just 3 hours away from home. I plan to go there though, one day.